We all know the valley of tears. On Friday, April 13, 2019, I lost my father. After weeks of fighting illness, he stopped eating and began to shut down. My brothers and I prepared to go - "Even when their paths wind through the dark valley of tears, they dig deep to find a pleasant... Continue Reading →
Put your feet in the water
John 13:7- "Jesus replied, you don't understand yet the meaning of what I'm doing, but soon it will be clear to you." I sat on the deck and looked down at the rushing creek below. I had so many questions, so many aches on my heart. I had two days set aside in a beautiful... Continue Reading →
One little lamb
I remember what you did for me Jesus. I remember my little white lamb. Many years ago, I had a powerful encounter with a little white lamb. I wanted desperately to be free from pain. I still carried memories and trauma that were like stabbing wounds in my heart. The only way I knew to... Continue Reading →
Meeting God
Then he said to the crowd, “If any of you wants to be my follower, you must give up your own way, take up your cross daily, and follow me. (Luke 9:23) At some point, we all need to meet God. But how that looks will change. Recovery from addiction is hard. It is painful. It... Continue Reading →
What are you willing to do?
This past week, I was asked an important question. What was it that made the difference for you? Why did you make it? I had to pause. I knew that this question was coming from a wounded place, desperate for answers. I knew I needed to be careful in how I answered. The truth is,... Continue Reading →
The Great Exchange
What can I do? I feel so helpless. When I try to help, I end up enabling the very behaviors I want to see go away. I either do too much, or I feel like I am not doing enough. There is a great exchange that needs to take place before recovery can truly move... Continue Reading →
Bigger than my buttons
What pushes your buttons? I know what my buttons are, and I am pretty sure they were all pushed this past week! We all have "buttons" that have been created by our experiences in life. Fear buttons or soul wounds that remain left over in our hearts. Not good enough Alone Failure Defective Powerless Unloved... Continue Reading →
Fear vs. Faith
You haven't heard from your son in 5 days. He has not responded to any of your messages. The last time this happened... Fear. The essence of nightmares, the reality of life. We don't want it, but can't avoid it. Fear is the way our bodies warn us of incoming danger. It begins with just... Continue Reading →
Restoring grace
"Recovery is an acceptance that your life is in shambles and you have to change." There is a phrase we use a lot in Families in Recovery meetings. Recovery is change. To recover means to get back what was lost, what the enemy has stolen from you. There have been many days in my life... Continue Reading →